Taylor Swift has spoken about her experience with disordered eating for the first time.
In her candid new Netflix documentary, Miss Americana - which follows Swift on tour (including an excellent look at her cat in a rucksack) and at more intimate moments of her life such as songwriting, becoming emotional when discussing the public backlash she experienced over the last few years and even glimpses into her relationship with Joe Alwyn - the 30-year-old speaks about her previous struggles with food and eating.
According to Variety, in Miss Americana Swift reveals how constantly being photographed and having her body discussed led to the 'You Belong With Me' singer developing body image issues and unhealthy attitudes towards food.
In a voiceover, Swift can be heard saying there were times in the past, where she'd seen 'a picture of me where I feel like I looked like my tummy was too big, or… someone said that I looked pregnant … and that’ll just trigger me to just starve a little bit — just stop eating.'
The singer clarified it 'only happened a few times, and I'm not in any way proud of it'.
Swift recalls how the serial scrutiny over her body started at a young age too, saying she was 18-years-old when she saw herself on the cover of a magazine speculating that she was pregnant.
'It was because I had worn something that made my lower stomach look not flat,' Swift says. 'So I just registered that as a punishment. And then I’d walk into a photo shoot and be in the dressing room and somebody who worked at a magazine would say, "Oh, wow, this is so amazing that you can fit into the sample sizes. Usually we have to make alterations to the dresses, but we can take them right off the runway and put them on you!"
'I looked at that as a pat on the head. You register that enough times, and you just start to accommodate everything towards praise and punishment, including your own body.'
Speaking to the magazine about broaching this subject for the first time - she concedes at one point that her disordered eating largely revolved around too much exercise and not eating - Swift explained how she'd come to this understanding of her own issues and so felt comfortable to have it covered in the documentary.
When the 10-time Grammy-winning singer was in the midst of her disordered eating - around the time of her 1989 tour - she started to notice the further negative implications of not nourishing her body properly, as she struggled to maintain stamina and perform to the best of her abilities.
'I thought that I was supposed to feel like I was going to pass out at the end of a show or in the middle of it,' she reportedly says in the show. 'Now I realise, no, if you eat food, have energy, get stronger, you can do all these shows and not feel [enervated].'
Ultimately, thankfully, Swift is in a much better place now and says she now shrugs off anyone who comments on her body.
For help and support with eating disorders, visit B-eat.
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